Update from the Drs

Hi all.

Went to the Dr. today for my ankle and lower leg. I got the photo of my new metal bionic ankle and lower leg. I have posted that on facebook for those who have been asking. This journey is going to be a long one and I am feeling that more and more.

I feel at such a standstill and I feel so frustrated with things right now.  I mean going to grocery stores with mom is even exhausting and just so difficult. I had my post op appointment today.  They took me out of the post op surgical cast and took the stitches out, (which was nice), and then from there took more x-rays and now i am in this Frankenstein boot which is a cast boot.  I am not allowed to put weight on my ankle yet or that leg. So I am non weight bearing until at a BARE minimum of three weeks from now. I go back to my surgeon three weeks from today and get more x-rays and see what those show him and what he thinks our best plan of attack is.

My sister comes into town soon which is exciting. I miss her so much since she has moved and my girls miss her so much too. These visits are something that I cherish beyond belief! I cannot wait for her to get here, to see the girls with her, just to see the interactions and to have a lot of laughs with her! I just wish we lived closer together all year round. I wish that me and both my sisters lived closer together. I just miss those special sibling moments now that we are older. I am thankful for technology and being able to talk to them, see them on webcams, talk to them when I want to now, and not having to wait on snail mail to talk to them. Now that would be frustrating!

I am struggling with life right now. Trying to have God just help show me where I am going and what I am doing. I cannot afford to go back to school right now for my Master's Degree, which is something I would LOVE to do.  I am struggling without exercise. I really think I am going to start something for one leg, abs and also arms. And work on that and focus on that because well, that is something I can do for me and will help me. I also need to find SOCIAL things to get involved in because I am feeling lonely. I am SO grateful for my family and my daughters, I just need social interaction with friends. That is what hurts right now emotionally is not having the social interaction. I just miss that. I had it so much prior to the injury and now it is like, it is gone and I just try to figure out why or where it went. I know part of it is that I cannot drive to get to events. Which of course complicates things for me and for my girls. I am thankful, as I said for my parents, for helping me, and working with me and the girls and driving and all. Really is a blessing that they are the kind of parents that they are.

I really hope to feel my spirits rise in the next few days. I just feel alone (emotionally) and just need some others around who are into sports and can understand how i am feeling and potentially even why I feel that way with what is going on! So I truly hope that I can manage to find that soon. There is a picnic tomorrow and I think unless something dramatic happens that I will not be there with my girls. Sounds exhausting. But so does everything right now. Just one day at a time. How about one hour at a time? One minute? Any of these sound like a good option right now.

Well, I will be writing again soon!