I decided blogging could be a cathartic experience for me right now. To rewind on that topic a little bit might help give some perspective.
I went to train in MMA (Mixed Martial Arts) this past Monday. Usual day for me really. We decided to just do grappling that night. Which of course for me is pure joy. I love doing that. So the guy I was working with decided to try a different sort of take down to the mat, which is good for all of us and helps us grow as students and fighters. He tried a sambo scissor take down. (Sounds complicated but it is not that in depth). So anyway, back to Monday, he went to do the move and while we were both in midair before I hit the ground you heard my ankle snap, crunch, and pop. Talk about a scary sound and pain. I don't remember much of the exacts of what happened but then I remember just falling face down on the mat. Shaking and not breathing easy. I got a bit calmed down and rolled over onto my back to breathe. My instructors and myself stayed optimistic and thought well, just a sprain. So I iced and then went about my things and hobbled (VERY) painfully to my car. Then went on to drive home and hobble around at home with my kiddos. 4 hours later, when the pain hit an all time high I ended up going to the ER in the middle of the night.
The ER was quiet for once. The ER doctor was real nice, very professional. Got x-rays done to find out my ankle was broken and had shifted. So I got wrapped up and given crutches and sent back home. Had to see an orthopedic doctor the next day. He was good as well. And as much as I thought he would put me in a cast or boot, he decided with how bad the break was that I needed surgery and ASAP. So Wednesday at 12pm was the slot less than 48 hours since the injury I was in the OR getting my leg put back together.
I am thankful that now I am 'home' and healing. This is going to be a long road. How Long? I do not know yet. I go back to the surgeon this friday for him to do a post op checkup and find out exactly what he is thinking now.
As I have had time (and been forced to) sit still, as crutches after awhile get very tiring and achy to use, I have had time to think and process a lot. So I have decided to start blogging my thoughts and just probably more for myself than anyone who decides to even read this.
I am learning a lot being forced to sit still and hobble around. One being, who knew how much we take for granted. I mean go with me on this one, even though I know it sounds cliche. We walk about in life doing daily tasks like it is not a big deal and it isn't when you are healthy and able. Take away one of your legs and give yourself something in each hand that you have no choice but to use because you cannot put weight on your 'bad leg' at all, and you realize day to day is not easy anymore. You should see me work on making a cup of tea. Talk about a 20 minute task. Or get my kids dressed, catching them is the hardest because now they know they can outrun me for sure! OR take a shower, get up stairs, get yourself and cook yourself a meal, well, cooking is one thing, relocating with food and drink to a table or chair that is a funny sight for all to see. Frustrating for the one trying to do it. But still. I think I am learning a lot about not taking things for granted.
I also have been so busy that well, I had not been spending as much time just being with my little ones. I tell ya that is about all we can do, stories, play together, laugh, argue (lol), and have them work together. So doing that with them is really been great and really helping me cherish these moments with them so young together. =) It really is making me realize how special and unique these ages are and to not just let the moments fly by without stopping to read a book, or play with characters with them, or clean up together as a group. Really is special.
I know that this injury happened and I know that it sucks. What I don't exactly know yet is how God is going to use it. Do I know he is going to? You bet. Do I know how? Not so much. One baby step (or hop in my case) at a time.
Hope to write more soon. Hope you all were safe during hurricane Irene and that not too many damages happened to you, your families or properties.
God bless.
